Feelings

I never died. Neither did I feign to die, there should not be a single fairy tale for a young black male like me. My only friend was my 'misery'. I could not escape fate so i had to be the unborn prince of my mother's womb. I could not explain a mother's pain when a child drops. Though i cannot make drastic changes, i could not pay back but my plan was to prove that i really understood. I sat back and had reminiscent on my past years. My life began with an end, do you know how ? I achieved all of the glamour and success through the end of my life. Could the Lord hear my cause ? Does The Lord care for the welfare of a negre like me? It really hurts to be a 'black'. I was a bit too frustrated with everything.. almost everything. I felt that I had seen them happening before. This was my practical experience. I hated people who tried to train me on inferior matters. I was just trying to be what i was destined to be for which many wished death upon me. They universal mob was not at all successful in convincing me. It was like me against the world. I had nothing to lose. They had pictured me rolling me in a grandeur style. They were Big "J". I hated the back stabbing vultures. Truly! Death was the only event which awaited my future and just feel the contrast, i had only one life to live. The whole world was in good mood, me i was subserviant to the centre. Was death my possible future to settle upon ? Everyone is subjected to die, isn't it ? but they really work substantially to base their lives into something productive. Me, i don't believe in it. I feel that death doesn't take away our investments and our hopes. It is only illusion and emotional connections we hold on to. I have seen parents giving up hope on their children. Probably, they have been old and weary and cannot afford to hold on to life any more. Their off-springs plan to do good, so it makes them feel higher in their eyes. Do they culminate in their stance ? i don't think so, since one fact engrained in human nature is that, until we get a shock we don't exactly realise what we have in hand or what we can probably lose of of our control. The fear of death certainly brings about a sense of response or immediate hurry to do something in life or an utter sense of urgency towards life.

I had also become an Outlaw. I was culpable.

Death was the only remaining figure who acted as an appropriate alarm to my mankind.

Slow actions lead to six feet below.

Fast actions also lead to the grave.

The problems are infinite, so only death is the ultimate relief.

REINCARNATE.

Agree!

i loved myself.